It’s Over :(
Wow. I never thought I would be sad that it’s over! The play I mean. There was a time during last week when it seemed that every time we did the play, it was getting longer and longer. I/we were just so SICK of it! We just wanted it to be over. Well, now it is…and we are sad! Friday night’s performance was awesome! We did a great job! Of course there were a little mistakes, but it was still fabulous. We all did A LOT of prayer and it payed off! After the performance, we went to the Bandy’s for our cast party. We usually have our party after the last night, but since we had to strike the set that last night and that would take forever, we had it on Friday night. We had lots of fun just goofing off. Then we watched out performance. It was so great! (we did see things we needed to work on, though.)
Performance two. For some reason, our energy was lacking. Maybe we were up too late the other night or it was just “morning” for us. The play went horrible!!! I mean, bad. Everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. I am not going to mention everything that the others did because I can’t remember it all…I am just going to remember me. First of all, I wasn’t feeling well. I couldn’t say that I was nervous (well, I did take my Xanex just in case…), I just felt like crap and had NO energy. I just laid on the floor of the green room and couldn’t get up. Alyssa was concerned and made me drink one of her Ensures because she guessed I needed some protein. I guess she was right because I felt a little better afterwards…well, well enough to get up and get ready. I did a lot of praying before I went on…I was still feeling shaky and yukky. I did well on stage. But, then the inevitable happened. I missed my cue. I thought I had more time, but then I realized that I missed it altogether. I was horrified and so incredibly upset. SO very upset. I tried everything in my power not to cry. I totally just wanted to give up and just quit. I pulled everything together and did the best acting job of my life by finishing my lines. AND, when we were doing curtain call, my shoe got stuck on the rug and it came off. I turned to the audience and gave them a thumbs up, picked it up and went to my spot….and wanting to fall into a hole. Afterwards, after everyone went and changed and greeted their guests, I just sat on the stage couch and tried very hard not to cry. When no one was around, I just burst out crying. I am not sure why…the audience didn’t know because Kristie and Kelsey were good ad libbers, but I was so upset. A few tried to comfort me until Alyssa sent them away. She told me to go wash my face (oh goodness so blotchy!!) and made me go eat. LOL! I really think I just didn’t want to hear Tammy chew me out about it. I know what I did wrong and I didn’t need to hear someone yell at me about it.
Afterward, Kelsey and I ran lines again, then just hung out…there just wasn’t enough time to go anywhere! Finally it was time for our last performance . My goodness, it was our best performance yet! We were so pumped! Maybe it was because we had such a bad performance and we wanted to go out on a bang. We sure did! We were on fire! We got flowers for Tammy afterwards, but they surprised us assistants (Alyssa, Roxane, and me) with a dozen roses! I was quite surprised. They also gave me a card they all signed and they said some sweet things.
A bunch of us went cosmic bowling afterwards. I am not a bowling fan because I suck, but I wanted to hang out. We had so much fun! It was a great time of joking and acting silly and letting loose. (I even bowled a 108…which is a personal best!)
Now I am sad that it’s over. I am going to miss being with the cast and all that was involved. I am glad it’s over because I have my life back, but…bittersweet. It’s bittersweet.
Oh ya. I was told I was their favorite adult there. 
That’s nice.
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